2016..so far

Its another new year..

Surprisingly it didnt confused me that much every time  i write down the date.. Its either iv been prepared for 2016 or theres nothing vavavoom bout 2016 anymore 😊

Maybe it got to do with the major breakdown in employment history in Malaysia (and myself). I mean this is 2016 not 1997. Shouldnt the development  and technology could save us from feeling unsafe already? 

Because..

1. We are such a small country (easyly manage)

2. We have our own resources and we are talking bout oil and gas here..

 Shouldnt we by now have at least similar to Brunei?

Of course not! And the world knows why.

1. We are becoming Indonesia at last 10years. Bribery and corruption smoothen things up.

2. We value our Rm1 now just like how the Indians value the Ruppee 

3. Criminal? Have u heard bout Mexico or Philiphinnes gangsters? Yes we are living with their kinds in Malaysia now.

See the similarities?

Developing countries.

And we are not developing because we went back to how these country was.

We are 'Not Developing Countries'.

Develop countries encouraged new idea and technology, support the small innovator, protect our idea.. But we are not.

We sell out out country to outsiders. We are still believe in outsiders.. Because of why? Our leaders cannot accept any new idea that could jeopardize their seat or side income.

The rakyat suffers year by year. We could not afford most of the basic things anymore. The gap between the poor and the rich? Have u watch Indonesia sinetron and Philiphinnes dramas?

I could feel that my hope for the country is goin down year by year. So how can i be sure of my dreams can be achieved?

Yes i have too much complaints because this is my level. I complaint as the citizen. 

What do i think i would do if im in power and at the position? 

I would bring all complainers like me to find solution asap and for once lets not think bout our own pocket already.

#pissedandhelplesscitizen

Ambitious

I couldn't help but noticed that many 3series chicks will eventually feel that as if 30 is the end of the age and need to do that and this pronto!

I was and am like that too! Maybe now the adrenalin is not that rush anymore but yea the things to do still there..

I still remember my top list was about getting married and have baby. I was like maniac getting that to be done asap. Untill i got a break off engagement and how that has changed my perspective 360.

Iv realized that things has been set accordingly by Him and if its not meant to be then it is not. We really need to let things flow on its own. Messing our mind with all those checklist will only cause u stress and down.

And i know now that i still need to accomplish things that i wanted before i settled down and have kids on my own.

I need to have my own house and space by living alone. I always want to live alone. So everything will be just my way. My way of getting up, of cooking, of taking care the house, of my leisure time, of having friends come over..

And come to think of this, i dont think im ready to tolerate living with another man in one house and basically sacrifice my space and my single life. 

And i still want to get my Master done in oversea, because i always want to study abroad. I dont think having kids is such a good idea for that purpose.

So, thats explained why theres certain goal were not been granted because Allah knows that im not ready for that yet.

In a way it helps me for not being too desperate in relationship. For not put up high hopes like usual. If it meant to be , it will be. If its not, its still ok.. Because He is preparing other more valuable things for me.

If the guy is the one, he will wait, he will understand, or he will surprisingly changed my mind to KIV my dreams first..

 But until now, theres no such man that could changed my life goal yet.