Youth Love

its hard to find love that started since your youth time will end up in happily marriage..ok scratch that..a happily wedding at least.. doesn't matter, high school or varsity years..ok maybe not in my circle..


why ah?


perhaps when it started we had planted in our young brain that that was the real relationship?
or u thought that since we met him at university..so he is well educated..or at least he is gonna graduate with a scroll in his hand so he will get a secured job?
and we graduated..
and turn out finding job is not that easy..plus rich guys is not really your priority because stability is..and the love is still there..


i thought if im being loyal he will return the favor?but i did not know the favor was 3 years after that..
thats when i thought i should switched during the first 3 years..
so it continues because u can sense his loyalty now, so u thought yeah loyal guy is hard to find..


and it dragged until the 5th year..damn now he is entering the fun phase..he is socializing like crazy..dont care bout future..or commitment to be exact..and then u started to dont bother as well because now that ur working and having own money is so much fun to be spent..


and now it getting to the 7th years..and ur aging sign clearly visible..perhaps ur 25 by now..and that was your target during your varsity years..u didnt know that 25 is nothing to be rush at because ur life has just started..so marriage and kids?is not really a big concern since ur aiming to buy a car and pay the rent..


and now its the 9th years..u are fucking scary 28 y.o. your hormones are changing..keep dreaming bout holding ur own baby and having ur own house to decorate..hair falls severely attacked..stress multiple..and u now(actually since the 8th years) started pushing bout marriage and saving..fighting all the time because u dont know what is playing in his mind..does he not ready yet?or he worried bout money to plan a wedding?coz u damn sure its not bout other woman anymore..


by the time it enters th big 10..u dont know what had happened..ur not sure either its ok to lose the relationship?or its ok to lose him?its a 10 years knowing inside out relationship already..u feel such a waste..u dont look at other guys anymore and that is why they never approached u..and by the time u start looking u forgot the technique!!!DAMN!and u blame the age..the looks..or the maturity?plus the circle is changing now..ur 29y.o. its either anak ikan or ikan besar with baggage..


pathetic life?dont worry, this is just the love life..at the other hand the life is developed..the career is sky scraping..u even actually look prettier(perhaps by the help from the expensive skincare and clothes)..


but again..u cant help thinking and observing..all ur friends are not marrying the same 10th years relationship guy?!they even marrying a guy who they met in a flight..or recommended by friends and family..and it doesnt need a 10 years relationship to tie the knot..damn again..


sigh...

A song to match your mood

Ermm..im so in good hormones..love is in the air..my dad is in good mood..so basically every happy song will do..but while im writing this post, this song is on air (from my colleague's radio on9 which is sometimes get on my nerve)..:p

im glad ct managed to get the first English album right on the time,hands and songs. I love the catchiness of this song and i marah when people criticize kononya her slang is not that american..The fuck? Hello bro..english is not american okay..U are so in the Jurassic element..every country has their own English slang and that's the beauty about it!


p/s: i highly look up on a purely malay slang but with world class choice of word..

New Year Eve Celebration 2012

with me lov

my best girls tim2 and farra (btw i dont know how to rotate)

This year around, i had my new year celebration at Danok,thailand..hehe sawadee..i had so much fun and love and urrrgghhhh..its a rare happening..enough said ;)


Yeah..i had Zul and my best girls around having fun at the same time is indeed rare!


I would love to have another round like that..yeah I want zul to start effectively mingling with my girlfriends..because i love both at par. So its hard for me to divide my attention and hurting their feelings is the last thing i ever thought of..I hate it when some people kiss butt the boyfie like people care when u actually is in group vacation..helloo.. there's always a reason why people created 'get a room!'


Nop. As best as I can I don't want to be like one..Both are important. So i love them both. Boyfriend or Girlfriends. No difference.