Life is not fair.

Life is not fair when people who dont even serious in rship n cheating like hell however end up with a boyfriend.

Life is not fair when people who never thought bout settle down however got proposed n agreed bcoz friends in the cycle is settling down too..

Life is not fair when all i want is getting pregnant n raised my child but other people who are not even talk bout kids got the chance to do so..

When it will be fair to me?

Kids v/s fashion designer

biasala kan bulan posa ni..kalau xda post emo mmg x lengkap lah kan..nafsu di 'tested'..

well..nothing much..i just cant help it monitoring kids nowadays..

their thinking, their lifestyles, their perception, their belief..so the opposite..or is it me who entering the next phase and it is actually normal at their age? but then thinking back during my early 20s..i never really behaved that pain-in-the-ass with other adult(than my parents) kinda way..thank god!

haih..bosan la plak ckp psal depa ni..literally it got to do with the bridesmaid dresses that i tailored with this freshly graduated fashion designer and charged me with the runaway-newly-established price!and this massacred (because it involve text fighting and 'laser' remark and apparently she is my ex's sister gf!) has passed for quite some time..

It just trigger me back because i went to a new fashion designer recently for my last minute baju raya. He has joined MIFA,YODA and all those prestige runaways..not to forget establish name like RR, Hatta and all were together in the event! And guess what, he is charging the same as that so called fashion designer that i mentioned before!! I mean i wont mind looking at the paper cutting and charging me rm350 for a fashionable dresses..right?

that's what i meant..these kids, think they are so move forward and thinking about fast money. There's no more quality in work, services to customer (no matter what relation u have) and of course wont mind to get into a fight and lose it..u think people with your crap quality is only u in this country? There's lots and customer like me don't have a slightest problem in searching one..

Regardless, i really hope u will learn this lesson and not repeating it. It such a shame to lose a talented people like u just because u have less exposure of the real world..esp in tailoring business ;)

move out and marriage

i think i need to move out from my parents house if i wanna believe in marriage and avoid negative perception deeply about man becoming husband. Sigh..

My pinky sweetheart birthday party 2012

This has always been my dream birthday party.. What exactly? Someone organize a birthday party for me.. From the invitation to the ending.. At least i had 'taste' it before i finished my 20s era.. Gosh time flies..

And here i am felt like haven't achieved anything yet.. Except maybe for the debt free of credit cards and my loyal car gonna join end of this year YEAY!! Okla ada la gak achievement before i enter to 3 series ye x? Theres people at my age still haunted by debt..so Alhamdulillah..

And now im strongly eager to buy my own house..iv been surveying at my fav area shah alam and kota damansara..insyAllah this is one of my big 2012 resolution.. I will try my beat to settle with this one..

Okay back to the party.. It was a small, lovely and pretty one..and i will remember till the end of life..

Feel it :)

InstaMe!!:)

I just bought an iPhone last 2 weeks!!! Owh im so happy..i always meant for iPhone..u can take away iphone from me but u cant take away iphone in me :D

And i knew bout Instagram since it been created( not since it been famous) and im so loving it..and my addiction towards photography n pictures become greater!! Tx to the fab editing apps, i feel like selling my HARDWORK art ~^^~ hihi..

So pls enjoy some of the so called artistic work of mine..

Im kinda in lovey dovey mood even without the love around.. But hey it cant stop the idea from it.. So i made pics of ours last night..:)

Test from Him

Thinking bout u might be the reason why they against it..hoping for u will just lead me to clueless..i couldn't figure out what is He try to show us..or at least show me..sign of stop or tests? Do i able to moved on and leave u alone bear all the tests He gave u..or us? 


Would i be doing the right thing if i left or stay? Does true love really matter despite any other issues? Do i really care if u have nothing but love towards me..Does the flaws will haunt me in the future? Could i face it at that time? Would i regret? Or i could be happier than ever because what matter is how i felt when im with u..in sickness and health..


i dont know dear..everytime i pray to Him, i never stop asking to put an ends to this madness test..to cure u..to bring u back to me if we are meant to be so..


and after all the 'doa'..i still cant stop thinking of u and willing to support u..
is that a sign from Him? Means i still cant go? Ya Allah..berilah ku kekuatan..

missing you..

i guess on that day..il be only missing u..
if no one bother bout it as usual..il be only missing u..
if i don't feel loved and cared..il be only missing u..


because only u..


always remember that day..
always bother to let me know that u remember..
always love and care about me endlessly..