Kids v/s fashion designer

biasala kan bulan posa ni..kalau xda post emo mmg x lengkap lah kan..nafsu di 'tested'..

well..nothing much..i just cant help it monitoring kids nowadays..

their thinking, their lifestyles, their perception, their belief..so the opposite..or is it me who entering the next phase and it is actually normal at their age? but then thinking back during my early 20s..i never really behaved that pain-in-the-ass with other adult(than my parents) kinda way..thank god!

haih..bosan la plak ckp psal depa ni..literally it got to do with the bridesmaid dresses that i tailored with this freshly graduated fashion designer and charged me with the runaway-newly-established price!and this massacred (because it involve text fighting and 'laser' remark and apparently she is my ex's sister gf!) has passed for quite some time..

It just trigger me back because i went to a new fashion designer recently for my last minute baju raya. He has joined MIFA,YODA and all those prestige runaways..not to forget establish name like RR, Hatta and all were together in the event! And guess what, he is charging the same as that so called fashion designer that i mentioned before!! I mean i wont mind looking at the paper cutting and charging me rm350 for a fashionable dresses..right?

that's what i meant..these kids, think they are so move forward and thinking about fast money. There's no more quality in work, services to customer (no matter what relation u have) and of course wont mind to get into a fight and lose it..u think people with your crap quality is only u in this country? There's lots and customer like me don't have a slightest problem in searching one..

Regardless, i really hope u will learn this lesson and not repeating it. It such a shame to lose a talented people like u just because u have less exposure of the real world..esp in tailoring business ;)

move out and marriage

i think i need to move out from my parents house if i wanna believe in marriage and avoid negative perception deeply about man becoming husband. Sigh..

My pinky sweetheart birthday party 2012

This has always been my dream birthday party.. What exactly? Someone organize a birthday party for me.. From the invitation to the ending.. At least i had 'taste' it before i finished my 20s era.. Gosh time flies..

And here i am felt like haven't achieved anything yet.. Except maybe for the debt free of credit cards and my loyal car gonna join end of this year YEAY!! Okla ada la gak achievement before i enter to 3 series ye x? Theres people at my age still haunted by debt..so Alhamdulillah..

And now im strongly eager to buy my own house..iv been surveying at my fav area shah alam and kota damansara..insyAllah this is one of my big 2012 resolution.. I will try my beat to settle with this one..

Okay back to the party.. It was a small, lovely and pretty one..and i will remember till the end of life..

Feel it :)

InstaMe!!:)

I just bought an iPhone last 2 weeks!!! Owh im so happy..i always meant for iPhone..u can take away iphone from me but u cant take away iphone in me :D

And i knew bout Instagram since it been created( not since it been famous) and im so loving it..and my addiction towards photography n pictures become greater!! Tx to the fab editing apps, i feel like selling my HARDWORK art ~^^~ hihi..

So pls enjoy some of the so called artistic work of mine..

Im kinda in lovey dovey mood even without the love around.. But hey it cant stop the idea from it.. So i made pics of ours last night..:)

Test from Him

Thinking bout u might be the reason why they against it..hoping for u will just lead me to clueless..i couldn't figure out what is He try to show us..or at least show me..sign of stop or tests? Do i able to moved on and leave u alone bear all the tests He gave u..or us? 


Would i be doing the right thing if i left or stay? Does true love really matter despite any other issues? Do i really care if u have nothing but love towards me..Does the flaws will haunt me in the future? Could i face it at that time? Would i regret? Or i could be happier than ever because what matter is how i felt when im with u..in sickness and health..


i dont know dear..everytime i pray to Him, i never stop asking to put an ends to this madness test..to cure u..to bring u back to me if we are meant to be so..


and after all the 'doa'..i still cant stop thinking of u and willing to support u..
is that a sign from Him? Means i still cant go? Ya Allah..berilah ku kekuatan..

missing you..

i guess on that day..il be only missing u..
if no one bother bout it as usual..il be only missing u..
if i don't feel loved and cared..il be only missing u..


because only u..


always remember that day..
always bother to let me know that u remember..
always love and care about me endlessly..

before-->30<--after

u know what scares me most about 3 series..its not really the number..but the consequences (i would describe it) of it..the pregnancy chances, the illness and the most the changed perception automatically changed goal of life..

u dont get it right..

okay..pregnancy and illness are quite common isn it..when u 30 onward chances of getting pregnant getting slimmer, the chances of unhealthy baby higher..and the most ur slow recovery of post labor..ur body,breast..unlike 20 ish..u still can rely on the good metabolism..so u know..when u makcik, metabolism u dah turun hokeh..so u susah nak kurus hokeh..

then illness..with my sooo 'healthy' lifestyle ;) im all prepared for all the consequences..i should stop kann?yeah i know..i just dont know why its gettin merrier..it seems lost in finding their exit..hee..

okay enough!

here come the main subject..all above wont happening if you still single or alone...(bunyi cengkerik) iv been told by a divorcee duda..he quoted:

'women after 25 they started to worry much bout gettin married..but when after 30 they started to think they can live without man..married or single..this is what happening in this woman of century'

errmm..i must say..i agreed in silence..but verbally for the sake of woman defensive i will disagree by sayin -yeah of course..if the guy didnt start givin problem, we mostly woman nature wont break the vow as easy as that-

but actually..even if the guy are givin u problem, u as a woman shouldnt u be the one to cool down the air?to be the opposite of the god knows man behavior..we woman can think deeply, can act multitasking, able to create the softness side of us easily compare to man's well known ego?even in Islam stated, we always by the side of man..

that's the thing right?if we woman nowadays could not tolerate such thing anymore means we want to be at their level without compromise..see how thing run opposite already..so when this happened, then is when 'after 30 they started to think they can live without man..married or single'

and this is the most im afraid of..because i actually started to think like one..i always have this question like 'why man have the rights and excused to criticize woman appearance after married..' because we can simply point out 'why man cannot maintain their belly after married' as well...owh then the save the world answer comes in...'thats because wer happy..married to our wife..' see!?BULL!

i just hope i manage to control myself at least give up to 35..to tolerate with man behavior..takuutt...